20 year old Mermaid cosmetologist from Ohio. I'm lonely, but don't want to talk to anyone. The sea is my one true love.
I smelled my hair today and thought to myself “wow, this really smells like something I’ve smelled before” I kept smelling my hair and then my heart sank because I remembered the smell.
Your birthday was a week ago and I forgot until today.. I would do anything to find out where they buried you and just go visit. To lay with you one last time. It wasn’t my fault you did what you did, I don’t understand why your family punished me, why they wouldn’t let me pay my respects at your funeral. You made it clear to me that you didn’t love me anymore, I wasn’t going to stay with someone who didn’t love me. Two weeks later I found out you didn’t love yourself. I’m so sorry you didn’t have the strength, you needed me and I wasn’t there.. But I refuse to think this was my fault anymore.
You were my first kiss, my first true love, my first boyfriend, you showed me compassion that no one else ever could. I wish you could have enjoyed life. No one even suspected that you had that much sorrow deep inside you.
You gave me the best year and a half I could have ever asked for. That still to this day means the world to me.
You would have been turning 22, instead you’re stuck at 19.
I miss you, Stephan.
Sometimes part of me really considers joining you.
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I think people spend too much time staring into screens and not enough time drinking wine, tongue kissing, and dancing under the moon.